Who will I hold on to desperately while I brave the crowded halls?
What am I going to do when I don't have your hand to lead me through the deathtrap of awkward teenage bodies?
I've got mixed emotions about you leaving.
On one hand, I am scared and worried. Sad I won't be able to see you all the time.
On the other hand, I'm so happy for you. You get to pursue what you love, and you get to learn, and meet people.
'Meeting people' probably is held in both hands of the thought.
I really can't even express what I'm feeling right now.
It's the most overwhelming feeling I've ever felt.
It's warm. It's cold. It's desperate, and scary. It's beautiful.
It's. Everything.
You are everything to me.
I'm having trouble even forming sentences. Let alone seeing the letters on the keyboard.
I'm having trouble remaining composed while typing this, and trying to text another friend.
I've broken down every day since I realized there was only one week left.
As if I didn't have enough trouble sleeping...
I'm sure not many people will even read this. Even if they did, I doubt that anyone but you and I would understand. It almost makes me angry that most of the world doesn't even know this feeling. They settle for what they think is the best, because it's the best they've seen. When really, it probably isn't half as good as what we have. It makes me angry, because it isn't fair. I wish EVERYONE could feel this. All my friends, even my enemies. It should be something completely accessible to everyone. Because it's the only pure thing in this world.
And everyone deserves some light in a dark place.
I wish they knew.
But we know.
I am going to spend the rest of my life with you.
If someone really doubts that, or has any skeptical thoughts about it, that's okay. Because we'll prove our point when we grow old together.
I remember what he said about the verse from Waste of Paint.
I remember what she said about getting invited to our wedding.
I remember the spider ring in the car.
I remember when we got married in the yard, with the umbrella full of flower petals.
I love you.
