Suffocation.

I want blackness to coat me
and to silver my open eyes
into a blindness of silence
where my eyelids
will no longer flutter
like damp butterflies
on your scarred cheeks

I dreamt of laughing gas
and the infectious feeling
of filling my lungs
with something other
than the air I so often inhale
in deep desperation
when you're breathing above me

when you wouldn't let me
hold your hand by the road
i felt like blacking out
under some bruised horizon
in some other town
where nobody would care
if i went off and got hurt

could've had some broken life
the way things were going
could've kept wandering on
with no reason to live
and an irrational conscience
but then you came around
and boy you changed the plot

Look here, i am drowning
but do you hear my plea?
you see me sinking
and you stand singing
some familiar folk song
we used to make love to
when love was kept pure